I’m not even sure how to begin.
Because, you know, there are so many things, and it never ends.
Every day I come up with at least 3 different blog posts. And every night, when I finally get 10 minutes of quiet space, all I want to do is go to bed and rest up for the next day. So I don’t get much writing done. Or should I say editing, since I feel like I’m always writing–whether in my head or on scraps of paper or in about a zillion different text and voice files scattered among 2 computers and 2 phones.
My point is, I would love nothing more than to sit and read and write and reflect all day, every day. I LOVE words. I love the internet. I love sitting.
But I’m a mom. I’m a wife. I’m a homeowner. And I’m a Facebook addict. (I thought I was almost over you, Facebook. Turns out I’m not.)
Mostly, I can’t seem to prioritize my schedule to meet both the needs of my family and those of my own.
I don’t know if I’m complaining, trying to come up with excuses, or just venting. But I know with 100% certainty that every day I wake up wanting to write. To read. To research. To analyze. To collect and share information. And every night I go to bed wishing I just had more time and more energy to do the things that I feel compelled to do.
Don’t get me wrong–I love my simple life. Well, it’s not so simple in many respects, but I get to live a life of my choosing. I stay at home with my children. I homeschool them. I (choose to) have very little external commitments. It’s pretty leisurely, I’ll admit. And I love leisure.
But I still feel like I’m busy from morning until night. It’s one chore, obligation, or need to meet after another. It’s called raising kids and taking care of a home, man. I need to come to terms with it, right? (And even though it seems like I’m complaining about it–and maybe I am–I really love raising my children. But I also know that I can’t sacrifice my own needs–at least not too much or for too long.)
So I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about time, priorities, efficiency, scheduling (or lack thereof), wants and needs. I’m working really hard on the thinking part.
I’ll get it together. Eventually.
You know what? Actually that’s not true. I’m pretty sure I won’t ever “get it together.”
Life is so many things, but one thing it’s not is this thing about reaching some final destination where you have achieved ultimate get-it-together-ness. There’s just no such thing, people. It’s all about how you handle the “so many things”–thing by thing, moment by moment. And how, in each moment, it’s up to you to find your own joy that makes your life full and fulfilling.
Wow–I think I just went from confusion to clarity in just a few paragraphs. No need for Dr. Phil today. See how awesome words are?
I better go. I’ve got to shower and get dressed, pry the kids away from the TV, clear a path through the house so I won’t have to keep stepping on little pieces of plastic jewelry, teach my children a thing or two, and work on finding joy in each moment.
So many things. It never ends.
How do you meet the needs of your family without sacrificing your own needs? What works best for you and your family in terms of prioritizing and scheduling? In other words, how do you MANAGE your life?